A wan smile and he let himself curl around her a bit, cuddling. "Thank you. I just don't know what that might be... Other than probably talking it out and that's... not a one day thing." But if she was willing to listen... Pry too, Nec knew himself well enough to know he needed to be pushed now and then. "And just so it's clear. I do trust you, fully, and will do the same for you if you even need it." That, and more.
He'd lost his train of thought, what had he been talking about? Dittin? Oh, right. "Oh yeah, they definitely did that. They placed bets too, and a few lost much on betting he'd kill me. To be honest he should have and sometimes I thought about letting him, but I always ended up living."
Trust her fully? That was honestly news to her. She had always thought Nec trusted her just enough and that was enough for her. Especially now. But maybe when there wasn't memories attached, he had to rely more on emotions and instincts? Maybe..."I know Nec. You are better at it then me. Or at least you were when I knew you. And I'm always here if you want to talk about it. Whatever springs to mind that day. You know where you can find me and we can always chat during work too. As long as you don't mind holding the train of thought if it is busy."
"Well, I'm glad you ended up living. Cause otherwise I would be dead Nec. Quite a few times." She wouldn't even have half her scars without Nec. Scars that proved she had made it out of something alive because he had been there to help her get what she needed to survive. "And besides. I would have bet for you. Always root for the underdog."
She didn't say anything, it was more a change in movement, a moment of going completely still tht tipped him of. She hadn't known he trusted her? It felt like he'd surprised her. "I really do. Thing is, I can trust people to a certain point, but most times there's this last bit of doubt, or rather certainty that they won't do anything to help me if it puts them at risk. I can only trust those who've proven me wrong on that count. I saw that look, you didn't expect to live when you made him follow you. That was fare well." He'd hated it and it showed if she could see his face. "Weird thing is, I trusted you before you did." It had confirmed it, but it was still odd to on some level expect her to try something like that.
"I can try? Heh, doubt I'll mention anything when you're working though, too many people...". He didn't exactly want everyone knowing!
She'd bet for him? And root. "Why couldn't you have come back with me when I left that other place...". It was just wishful thinking, but had it been a possibility he'd never have let her. He could dream though. "I could've really needed a friend back then."
It had been farewell as she hadn't expected to live. But damn it all! She wasn't going to let him hurt Nec. Not when she had figured out that if she ran, he would follow her. "At least you got it confirmed. Now, if only the memories show up, you can see why!" She laughed lightly. Memories were strange things and she wondered why Nec had lost his to begin with?
"You can just talk about your day too. Cause sometimes, it is just enough to hang out with someone. You know?" A sad smile crossed her face at that question. "I think it is best if you remember that part yourself, Nec." Cause she was sure that they would come back...Or at least something would. She was willing to bet on it.
"Yeah... I wish I hadn't forgotten but I think it was the best for that place... They really wanted to go there after I got back." Why the hell did he even go back? It didn't sound like a bad place, apparently he'd had friends! The thought of the time after his return made him shudder and squeeze her closer, maybe a bit too hard. Nope. That was over now, long ago, no need to think about.
True, he could. And he didn't want every time they met up to become a therapy thing either, that wasn't fair on her. Once in a while, sure, but not all the time. "Aaaw, come ooon." But it was a joke, he was just Whining to lighten the mood. He really wanted her to tell but she was right. Hopefully remembering wouldn't take too long...
Jasper suppressed the wince. That was a bit too tight, but she could still breath. That was all that matter. An hand came up to rub lightly at the arm that held her. Trying to be soothing. "Probably why you forgot then. It was your choice to protect us." She hummed softly. Still sucked though. Still hurt. But maybe since he wasn't there anymore...What would it hurt for the memories to come back? It isn't like it was the easiest place to get too anyway. Mostly people just stumbled upon it by accident.
"Nope. There is nothing you could use to bribe me. Not even chocolate." She knew it was a joke though. At least he didn't sound too serious when he said it. And even if he was serious...She still wouldn't do it. There were just some things that would be better for him to remember on his own. Dropping hints or trying to trigger memories were fair game. Giving him an very skewed point of view? Nope. She wasn't going to try and do that. That wouldn't be fair to him.
Another yawn escaped her. "Sorry Nec...I might fall asleep soon. But you can talk till then. Or hell. You can even talk to me while I sleep. Probably won't remember it consciously anyway."
Lucky for her it lasted but a moment. "Maybe, but I doubt it. I'm not that selfless and I know if I had friends there and had to leave, I wouldn't have wanted to forget. I'm pretty sure I'd refused. But I'm glad I forgot, for your sake."
Not even chocolate? "Guess I'll remember eventually. Already get glimpses you know. Had more after our lunch too, so going the right way." Sighing deeply, he notes just how tired he is, and Jasper has already tried to stifle a couple of yawns. "That's fine, I'm starting to drift a bit too." Incredible how fast it went when he first noticed. "Apo is heading back. I told him to be quiet bt he's still a bit protective." Meaning he might get right into bed with them and make a cave with his wings.
"That's fine. Could use all the protection you could..." she didnt finish the sentence as she difted off to sleep. In all honesty, it wouldnt be a bad way to wake up in the morning. All cuddled in and protected. Not a bad way at all.